It is not often that I think I should slap myself, grow up and get a grip, but today I think that is the only approach.
So far today I have huffed, sighed and groaned over the following:
- The testimonial I was asked to write for a website has not been used
- My manager had what looked like a very interesting conversation with a colleague that I felt I should have been involved in but was not
- I didn’t know there was a dressage and/or show jumping competition in 12 days and now don’t have long to prepare
- While riding a canter which I was so proud to have managed to slow down from our usual headlong rush, a spectator likened it to race-horse and jockey
I’m currently still furious about the last of this list. Basically he took all my satisfaction away. When I explained to him that actually I was working on slowing him down and felt we were making real progress, and that was really good for us, he dismissed it and told me now I had to show him a real slow canter. I wish I’d have shown him two fingers, to be honest, but I think he thought what he was doing was giving amusing teasing encouragement rather than taking the satisfaction I had with my ride and stamping on it. Instead of doing anything more I called it a day and went to cool down mode. (To be honest we’d already been riding longer than I usually would, so it wasn’t like I cut the ride short because of him.)
But in between my waves of seething anger I do see that it’s all
First world problems!
He is a just a silly man who’s never been on a horse and is actually a nice person, even if he pushed all the wrong buttons with me today.
Only a few months ago I was wondering whether I’d bought a horse I’d never manage to canter, and here I am not only cantering every day but managing to see progress in training him to do it in a way he finds even harder (i.e. on the correct leg, and not rushing at top speed).
Oh yes, and I have a lovely horse, kept at great expense for leisure purposes. How first world can you get? 😉
I’m not sure why but for the past few weeks this sort of thing has been getting a bit out of proportion. I just need to put it back in its place and get over myself.
Hopefully I’ll be back to a more resilient version of myself by the weekend, because it’s time for another Lee Pearson lesson! I’m looking forward to showing him our canter work, and in fact all of our gaits. I think I’ve got Drifter working much better since we last saw him, I think we’re less on the forehand and more “gymnastic” but honestly I don’t really know what it looks like to the informed watcher! I guess I’ll find out soon!